About me:

​​     My name is Maleyna Rodriguez and these past four years I’ve been on a roller coaster of finding myself and losing myself over and over. I’ve had such a hard time pushing through and have made so many regretful decisions along the way. Decisions that get me choked up just thinking about. I fear that I’ll continue with my destructive patterns and lose myself completely down the road and I don’t want that to impact anyone else, I don’t want that for anyone else. My mother was my role model for 13 years but she’s been struggling with addiction since the age of 15. My childhood was cut short trying to parent and protect my mother. This caused me to be exposed to things at a very young age that I shouldn’t have never been exposed to. This took a toll on me since we were so close but it didn’t really start impacting me until these past two years. Now that I’m old enough to understand the things I went through. Everyone says to let go of the past because we can’t change it but how can I let go of all the things that have anchored itself to me because of it? I’m persistent and I’m willing, but I’m still struggling, and I’m still scared. It’s a battle between opposite sides and everyday I wake up wondering which side will win. I guess that’s why it’s so important for me to share my experiences, to let others know we’re not struggling alone, and to make them aware that there are so many positive ways to cope. So many better choices to make. Stress doesn’t have to only bring pain, it can bring clarity, strength, and transform you in any way you desire if you let yourself accept and forgive it.